The Predator and His Pride

(Photo credit: Flickr / Marc L'esperance)
(Photo credit: Flickr / Marc L’esperance)


I prefer you as a potentiality,
the tease and hunt rather
than the taste of blood
from first bite.
It’s always so disappointing.

I’d rather salivate from afar,
the honey dripping from my mouth
and drawing you closer, ever closer
to my slaughterhouse.
Even with all my camouflage and mimicry,
I’m still a predator, and I must feast.


The voyeurs in their safari trucks will report:

Now look there, mates!
That wild beast must be absolutely starving!
They rarely roam this far from their homes.
And, awh hell, he must be damn desperate, too.
Animals of his caliber only ever eat that prey
after all other options have been chased away.
See how he cowers when we notice him;
his pride must be suffering terribly this season.


In lion prides, it is only the female who hunts.
She stalks better, knows best when to strike
and when to otherwise tarry,
patient for the perfect opportunity,
unsacrificing in her practiced, savage ritual.

The males are too large and too loud,
their manes alerting all to their presence.
Each lioness may run to him for protection
from time to time, but they could survive
fine without him, if they had to.
Should they grow thin and desperate enough,
they would likely, easily turn on him, outnumbering
and devouring his boastful, excessive body.

But they like to keep him around
as an alternate source of protein,
something fresh to preserve their strength
when the wild hunt proves to tiresome.

He does not know how close to death
he lives his life. His harem keeps him
distracted, just the way they like –
with tear of tooth and bloodied fur
far from his sated, foolish mind.

The Name and The Port

Ivan Kačić Barišić, pictured here on the right during a visit back to his hometown of Sućuraj, Croatia.
Ivan Kačić-Barišić, pictured here on the right during a rare visit back to his hometown of Sućuraj, Croatia.

When the ship docked into a port
my grandfather had never before seen –
and would take years to learn to speak –
he was willing to change his name
for this piece of fabled earth.

He chopped off the front half
of his family, his heritage, altered
the spelling for ease of English tongue,
smudged the accents with pride
to transform himself
into just another thread.

A half-century later,
his wish was granted:
The country that adopted him
and he so adored folded
him into a tri-color flag
before she swallowed him within
her concrete fortress for one final furlough.


Today, I bear the Americanized edition
of his first name as my middle –
the work already done for me
and tucked tightly between the folds.
My passport – a golden ticket of access
and privilege – too often sits in its own waste
by my staying in and holing up at home.

I will never know his fear
of abandoning everything to wholesale
claim a new home unseen –
the war of the motherland still barking
loud enough to be heard oceans away.

But at least here, with all our copy-pasted
prints and mass-produced fabrics,
I will never have to change our name
again for the sake of survival.

From the Feet Up (after Gil Scott-Heron)

(Photo Credit: Flickr / McKenzie Lloyd-Smith
(Photo Credit: Flickr / McKenzie Lloyd-Smith

We were born weak
always told and taught to follow
in our fathers’ footsteps;
abide by their wisdom,
only make waves
when they ask us
to swim or splash.

But the water they used to make
their Kool-Aid has soured,
and their dyes are now fading
loosening their grip with the loss
of their color.

When men die, they always turn gray.
And gray is only beautiful when paired
with some shade more vibrant,
some flower tucked in his funeral coat,
reminding us of how alive we used to be,
of how much concrete we can still crack.

And then we feel our youth return to us,
shake off the dust of the follower
and take on the dirt of the founder –
unconcerned with whomever may
one day retrace our deep footprints
in the red, wet clay.

Our leaders are only the heads of corpses,
and they can only move so far without their feet.
And it’s the feet who will lead
this next march,
the feet who will walk
the greatest paths,
the feet who will kick
this from the ground up.

And when we take our rest,
we will slip off our shoes and appreciate
them for their scuff marks and thinned soles,
proud of how far we have walked
without anyone there
to hand us directions.

The Millworker, Sans Mill (of James)

(Photo Credit: Flickr / Peter Bongard)
(Photo Credit: Flickr / Peter Bongard)

You are too tall, stretched thin by years of labor,
pulled lanky under the heat of furnace –
like a piece of taffy severed from the rest of its body
now stuck between greedy child’s teeth.

Your face bears the mark of the squinter,
widower crow’s feet scratching at the corners of your eyes
hoping to shield them from the flash and burn of melted steel.

Your accent belies you. An inverted migrant
who worked his way south because the blast and kiln
no longer dissolved enough ingots of pig iron
to keep you answering to the factory bell.

You were in the first shipment to the slaughterhouse,
them hoping to get one last cut of bacon to bring home
of you, not for you.

But you lived lean for long enough
and could smell when it was time to run again.
The smokestacks didn’t need to crumble
for you to realize what the next shovel
of fire fuel was bound to be.

Actress / Another Prop

(Photo Credit: Flickr / Angharad Segura)
(Photo Credit: Flickr / Angharad Segura)

Your home is a studio.
All your possessions have been bought
for you by a propmaster who’s confident
he can define you with objects.

Your clothes fit you like a well-timed ad,
and the costumer will get a bonus
for showing just the right amount
of your cleavage this season.

Your movements are acts
of stringless puppetry.
Your words are only yours
when you flub a line and the director deigns
to keep it because it sounds more “natural.”

Your emotions were once yours,
but you’ve since sold them for a few
cheap laughs at some writer’s bad joke
and the chance to make it,
whatever that may mean this week.

Grown men will hold themselves
and magazine portraits of you,
wishing they could be inside,
praying for the chance
to get to know you better.

But they’ll never learn:
You’re just an actress playing yourself,
and you don’t know what to do
when the camera quits rolling.

When I Drink

(Photo Credit: Flickr / RCBryson)
(Photo Credit: Flickr / RCBryson)

When I drink,
the ever-present pain
in my back dulls
just enough to help me forget
what it is to be human.

When I drink,
you become both
exceedingly attractive
and evermore attainable
within the same passed hour.

When I drink,
the shitty music playing
at this bar, club, hole-in-the-wall pub
takes a turn for the tolerable.
My memories of every song
I’ve ever heard become more fluid,
filling in the gaps where this track is lacking.

When I drink,
my dancing improves drastically,
both in my head and the space I fill.
The muscle spasms are likely exactly the same,
but when swung with far less reservation,
appear better, sexier, bolder.

When I drink,
my teeth tend toward numb
and my tongue unfurls to flap out
every word that’ll fly on the wind.
they propel me forward into what would
have otherwise been a night of dead seamen.

When I drink,
I become more confident, more direct,
more the person I feel I ought to be.
I’ve always been an enabler,
but only liquor lets me put the springboard
under my own feet – vaulting me forward
toward a flight that only gets more exciting
with the prospect of a bigger crash.

When I drink,
I always overlook the warning label
hidden on the bottle’s back corner.
It screams, in its loudest, tiny-print voice:
May cause delusions of grandeur.
These will be fierce, fun, and loyal,
but they will be short-lived.
The body will only turn a blind eye
to the mind’s tricks long enough to bed her.
Then he will slug himself in the gut and purge
everything that temporarily made him think
he could ever be greater
than mortal.

Screen Magic

(Photo Credit: Flickr / Flush Gorden)
(Photo Credit: Flickr / Flush Gorden)

All day,
I sit and stare
at screens
and these,
these are the truest
windows to the soul.

They are modern magic
conjurers of information
and images moving
at the speed of human life
and computing it at breakneck.

They’re impossible to ignore.
Even when dark and blank-faced,
they continue to taunt
with endless possibilities
of other worlds
fitter people
better lives
more interesting days
than the ones I’m sitting through
and passing until something
more-perfectly contrived slides
onto the display
and dissociates my mind
from my reclining body,
reminding it that watching
is always better than acting.


I wonder:
do my screens
ever stare back at me
and scoff?

"How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live." — Henry David Thoreau


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